<writes here since unsure if you'll read the front page>
Yeah, I want to kill you about now. I've been all geared up to talk to you since you signed off randomly earlier. "brb" my ass. :tongue:
Things in point:
1) I somehow got sucked into reading up on Star Wars III and ran into love/pregnancy/incest. I'm not sure how brushed up you are on SW info, so I'll elborate here. Well, we got the whole thing where Anakin (young Darth Vader) basically stalks Padame (she was a Queen at 14 years old when he was a 9 year old slave. Later on, she's no longer a queen since its only for a set amount of time) till she agrees to secretly marry him (they have no chemistry whatsoever in ep. 2 so it was more like he forced her). From summaries I got online of the upcoming third episode, she ends up hiding her pregnancy from not only her husband but from everyone since she wasn't suppose to marry a Jedi in the first place (yes, I want to see the movie to see the creative costumes they come up with to hide a 8 month pregnant woman). Sensing that he's slipping over into the dark side, she doesn't tell him though I assume at some point she does. When she goes to confront Anakin to try and bring him back from the darkness, he chokes her with the Force and from what I gather, almost immediately afterwards goes into labor with their children. Obi Wan is with her as she gives birth to Luke and Leia, and then she dies.
The part that got me about all this is that here she was trying to avoid falling in love with him in the first place, but does, marries him secretly, gets pregnant and she's all alone going through the trials of hiding it since he's slipping away from her, and then her husband nearly kills her, before she dies in childbirth. That sucks balls. Being an empathetic person as opposed to sympathetic, I'm trying desperately not to angst about it because...damn. Of course I immediately tried to connect this to Link though faltering, but hey, I can so stretch my mind to do it. Though why I keep wanting to apply it to B/R I have no idea.
2) The creator of SW is really fucked up because he knew the whole time that Luke and Leia were twins and he goes about for three movies parading them around as lovers (not sure if they ever have sex since whenever I watch SW immediately afterwards my mind purges itself of the expierence). Ew. Ew. I believe he even has them kissing at one point before they realize that they're twins. Ugh. Then we go to Link again where I was like, "dude, if Shiva threw out something like that in her story and surprised everyone, including me, I think I'd be sick." My mind keeps wanting to say that'd be a fun scenerio with Damion though that's impossible (preassumingly, but that's right, we have no idea what's going on with the main Slayers cast so I guess its possible...then again, a lot of fans paint Xellos as a man ho, so whose to say that he doesn't have a bunch of illegimate children running around? Then again, even as weak as Talia is, I think anyone else would have a hard time getting into Damion's pants. Unless it was someone other than Coro because you know, Coro has his definate reasons why he can't truly harm his sister so someone else who doesn't give a shit could get rid of her easily). Oh, and I thought of how you could ship C/T in the Luke/Leia scenerio except for the blinding obvious bit where you can tell they're related in some way.
3) I'm drawing. YAY! Beat that! *coughs* I didn't know what I was intially drawing when I made a tiny head on my paper but its evolved into the scene I pictured and mentioned in several ficky fics of Mizelia leaving her home. She's got her umbrella and you can see not quite 3/4 or half her face and she's dressed in her familiar Link outfit (is especially proud of her umbrella). There is a problem since I'm not sure how her legs should look as she walks down the stairs, but the picture does have some movement in it, so its not a portrait. Her face is calm. Not gleeful because I'm basing this on the idea that Laixander does confront her and tries to tell her the truth about his feelings, so while she's happy she's getting out, she's also just trying to forget and concentrate on the future.
Mmm, didn't we have a big dicussion once over how if Mizelia even slightly suspected Laixander's feelings she wouldn't have left? I'm also going with that here, but there is that questioning, nagging voice at the back of her mind that gives her just a slight pause, but not enough to stop her, make her turn around and ask Laixander flat out if he loves her. (this would be shoujo/romantic comedy)
I have another problem. On one hand, I want to have Laixander at the top of some stairs looking down at her, his distraught feelings (yeah, I know that you don't think he'd care too much but I'm really thinking along the lines that its hard to have someone you love go away. Later on the war starts and that would give his heart strings a sick feeling because she is a lone dragon traveling in the midst of a raging war) clear on his face. All Mizelia would have to do is look back to see this, but of course, she's not the type to look back. Oh, I need to clarify on what I mean by "clear on his face": that is, a slightly parted mouth, eyebrows drawn together, a softening of the eyes, but most of his unsettledlness would only be observed in his eyes, not easy to capture with my pencil and paper. Then another prospect occured to me of having his back to her (wow the tongue in the last comment is wagging in time to No Doubt's "Just a Girl"), arms folded, looking very blank with shoulders back. Dignified. But that feels like it would cheapen the effect I'm going for here.
My main problem altogether is that I have the background settings all planned out in my mind but not the skills or knowledge on how to lay them out on the paper. Whenever I try to draw perspectative it looks funky. But I do like the "storytelling" aspect and emotional weight I'm seeing within my mind's eye.
BAH. Where are you? I ....am suddenly sleepy. Heh. I just messed up on Mizelia's legs as expected, well that can be erased. I erased Kaye's legs and redrew them more decently than they were previously in that nakie picture where Coro is where Kaye's glasses.
4) Is there a specific reason behind Mizelia's arm gauntlets? I'm faily certain you designed Mizelia's character design prior to ever seeing Sasuke, so that's a neat concidence (unless you totally ripped off/were ripped off of sayeth Miller). Not that they're not nice and whatnot, but I'd think they'd be kinda odd/bulky. Hehe. I'm having fun making up ideas of what's under them. Cool mini-daggers? Tattoos a la Scar which amplifies her powers? Some awesome scene where someone (Laixander maybe--yes, I over use paranthesises) grabs her wrist and shoves it up to reveal a)she's a cutter > .< b)her engagment bracelet/armband (w00j) or c)something else. In that scene, she's all extremely embarassed and pulls her arm back defensively while whomever stares at her in shock. Haha, I so can see some fangirl/boy writing angsty Mizelia cutter fics. Pssh. HEH!
5) And finally, my pr0ny late night mind came up with some pwp scene that some desperate fan could write that Laixander and Mizelia do hook-up before Mizelia leaves. It basically went like this: instead of leaving the city/territory altogether on the first day, she ends up at some inn place. Laixander tracks her down there (can you imagine describing a water dragon in WD country? "You know, tall, skinny, long wavy blue hair? Green eyes?" "um, sir, you just described yourself pratically (no breasts!)") and going along with that other REALLY REALLY REALLY weird sick obsession of Laixander being teased for letting his fiancee walk away without "making sure" no one else will want her (WD society=Victorian era obviously). So more UGH with Laixander going completely OOC and being frightfully forceful as he tries to convince Mizelia to leave her virginity with him.
*washes brain out over and over*
Yeah, I have no idea where the sickest thoughts come from. Maybe the unconcious universal sewer I tap into when tired right before bed.
And with that, I'm yawning and stopped quite a while back on this drawing, so I guess I should go to bed since you've left me forever and ever (its 3:48 am). I hate how I always worry obsessively over other people's safety. You haven't gotten back online so now I'm thinking "did she go back to the dorm? If she had, I'm sure she would have immediately got online to return to leeching. No, she's probably spending the night at her house (without me! you jerk! I was bored!) and leaving whenever Sam decides to go back. Then why isn't she on the computer? Um...she's at home and didn't take her laptop. But if she didn't take her laptop, it'd be online currently sapping away while she was at home, so of course she took it. Why she isn't hooked up somewhere, I don't understand. Btw, why hasn't Patty been online? Hmm. Maybe Sam and her were returning to school and got in a horrific wreck! Yeah, that's it. *cringes* Okay, you're being overdramatic right now. She didn't get into a wreck. Sam does not equal Nick. I'm sure she's at home sleeping or something or can't get online. Yeah, calm down. No need to worry that she's in pieces somewhere on the side of the road..."
Actual conversation with myself.
*goes to angst elsewhere*
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(what if she really was dead? what would you do then? you jerk, you should have obsessed over her or something because what if she's really dead? you'll never talk to her again. just shut up, shut up mind. It's late and I'm sure Shiva when she reads this is going to be all "wtf?" I do think you're going insane)
P.S. Your own fave deviation gives me the creeps everytime I see it though it does have a certain amount of depth to it.
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
Hey, btw, do you remember how you mentioned maybe letting me take care of the degues? Is that option still available since I'll be living here next year? (wonders how to get over fear of being bitten by animals that do bite since my girls don't)
Just a thought.
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
Hai, hai. I'm a worrywart excessively. There is another person whom I worry about as much too, but that was a few years ago and I woke up this afternoon (I want to sleep some moreeeee) thinking about that time too.
Aw, I want to see God (yes, that's her name now because because....I said so. Suddenly had a flashback to that show 'Dinosaurs' with the baby going, "Not the momma, not the momma.") more often.
*yawns* Eh, its such a pretty day and I've been left here at my house again. Man, I want to go out and enjoy the day.
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
Yae...
Devious Comments
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
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~shiver
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
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~shiver
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Yeah, I want to kill you about now. I've been all geared up to talk to you since you signed off randomly earlier. "brb" my ass. :tongue:
Things in point:
1) I somehow got sucked into reading up on Star Wars III and ran into love/pregnancy/incest. I'm not sure how brushed up you are on SW info, so I'll elborate here. Well, we got the whole thing where Anakin (young Darth Vader) basically stalks Padame (she was a Queen at 14 years old when he was a 9 year old slave. Later on, she's no longer a queen since its only for a set amount of time) till she agrees to secretly marry him (they have no chemistry whatsoever in ep. 2 so it was more like he forced her). From summaries I got online of the upcoming third episode, she ends up hiding her pregnancy from not only her husband but from everyone since she wasn't suppose to marry a Jedi in the first place (yes, I want to see the movie to see the creative costumes they come up with to hide a 8 month pregnant woman). Sensing that he's slipping over into the dark side, she doesn't tell him though I assume at some point she does. When she goes to confront Anakin to try and bring him back from the darkness, he chokes her with the Force and from what I gather, almost immediately afterwards goes into labor with their children. Obi Wan is with her as she gives birth to Luke and Leia, and then she dies.
The part that got me about all this is that here she was trying to avoid falling in love with him in the first place, but does, marries him secretly, gets pregnant and she's all alone going through the trials of hiding it since he's slipping away from her, and then her husband nearly kills her, before she dies in childbirth. That sucks balls. Being an empathetic person as opposed to sympathetic, I'm trying desperately not to angst about it because...damn. Of course I immediately tried to connect this to Link though faltering, but hey, I can so stretch my mind to do it. Though why I keep wanting to apply it to B/R I have no idea.
2) The creator of SW is really fucked up because he knew the whole time that Luke and Leia were twins and he goes about for three movies parading them around as lovers (not sure if they ever have sex since whenever I watch SW immediately afterwards my mind purges itself of the expierence). Ew. Ew. I believe he even has them kissing at one point before they realize that they're twins. Ugh. Then we go to Link again where I was like, "dude, if Shiva threw out something like that in her story and surprised everyone, including me, I think I'd be sick." My mind keeps wanting to say that'd be a fun scenerio with Damion though that's impossible (preassumingly, but that's right, we have no idea what's going on with the main Slayers cast so I guess its possible...then again, a lot of fans paint Xellos as a man ho, so whose to say that he doesn't have a bunch of illegimate children running around? Then again, even as weak as Talia is, I think anyone else would have a hard time getting into Damion's pants. Unless it was someone other than Coro because you know, Coro has his definate reasons why he can't truly harm his sister so someone else who doesn't give a shit could get rid of her easily). Oh, and I thought of how you could ship C/T in the Luke/Leia scenerio except for the blinding obvious bit where you can tell they're related in some way.
3) I'm drawing. YAY! Beat that! *coughs* I didn't know what I was intially drawing when I made a tiny head on my paper but its evolved into the scene I pictured and mentioned in several ficky fics of Mizelia leaving her home. She's got her umbrella and you can see not quite 3/4 or half her face and she's dressed in her familiar Link outfit (is especially proud of her umbrella). There is a problem since I'm not sure how her legs should look as she walks down the stairs, but the picture does have some movement in it, so its not a portrait. Her face is calm. Not gleeful because I'm basing this on the idea that Laixander does confront her and tries to tell her the truth about his feelings, so while she's happy she's getting out, she's also just trying to forget and concentrate on the future.
Mmm, didn't we have a big dicussion once over how if Mizelia even slightly suspected Laixander's feelings she wouldn't have left? I'm also going with that here, but there is that questioning, nagging voice at the back of her mind that gives her just a slight pause, but not enough to stop her, make her turn around and ask Laixander flat out if he loves her. (this would be shoujo/romantic comedy)
I have another problem. On one hand, I want to have Laixander at the top of some stairs looking down at her, his distraught feelings (yeah, I know that you don't think he'd care too much but I'm really thinking along the lines that its hard to have someone you love go away. Later on the war starts and that would give his heart strings a sick feeling because she is a lone dragon traveling in the midst of a raging war) clear on his face. All Mizelia would have to do is look back to see this, but of course, she's not the type to look back. Oh, I need to clarify on what I mean by "clear on his face": that is, a slightly parted mouth, eyebrows drawn together, a softening of the eyes, but most of his unsettledlness would only be observed in his eyes, not easy to capture with my pencil and paper. Then another prospect occured to me of having his back to her (wow the tongue in the last comment is wagging in time to No Doubt's "Just a Girl"), arms folded, looking very blank with shoulders back. Dignified. But that feels like it would cheapen the effect I'm going for here.
My main problem altogether is that I have the background settings all planned out in my mind but not the skills or knowledge on how to lay them out on the paper. Whenever I try to draw perspectative it looks funky. But I do like the "storytelling" aspect and emotional weight I'm seeing within my mind's eye.
BAH. Where are you? I ....am suddenly sleepy. Heh. I just messed up on Mizelia's legs as expected, well that can be erased. I erased Kaye's legs and redrew them more decently than they were previously in that nakie picture where Coro is where Kaye's glasses.
4) Is there a specific reason behind Mizelia's arm gauntlets? I'm faily certain you designed Mizelia's character design prior to ever seeing Sasuke, so that's a neat concidence (unless you totally ripped off/were ripped off of sayeth Miller). Not that they're not nice and whatnot, but I'd think they'd be kinda odd/bulky. Hehe. I'm having fun making up ideas of what's under them. Cool mini-daggers? Tattoos a la Scar which amplifies her powers? Some awesome scene where someone (Laixander maybe--yes, I over use paranthesises) grabs her wrist and shoves it up to reveal a)she's a cutter > .< b)her engagment bracelet/armband (w00j) or c)something else. In that scene, she's all extremely embarassed and pulls her arm back defensively while whomever stares at her in shock. Haha, I so can see some fangirl/boy writing angsty Mizelia cutter fics. Pssh. HEH!
5) And finally, my pr0ny late night mind came up with some pwp scene that some desperate fan could write that Laixander and Mizelia do hook-up before Mizelia leaves. It basically went like this: instead of leaving the city/territory altogether on the first day, she ends up at some inn place. Laixander tracks her down there (can you imagine describing a water dragon in WD country? "You know, tall, skinny, long wavy blue hair? Green eyes?" "um, sir, you just described yourself pratically (no breasts!)") and going along with that other REALLY REALLY REALLY weird sick obsession of Laixander being teased for letting his fiancee walk away without "making sure" no one else will want her (WD society=Victorian era obviously). So more UGH with Laixander going completely OOC and being frightfully forceful as he tries to convince Mizelia to leave her virginity with him.
*washes brain out over and over*
Yeah, I have no idea where the sickest thoughts come from. Maybe the unconcious universal sewer I tap into when tired right before bed.
And with that, I'm yawning and stopped quite a while back on this drawing, so I guess I should go to bed since you've left me forever and ever (its 3:48 am). I hate how I always worry obsessively over other people's safety. You haven't gotten back online so now I'm thinking "did she go back to the dorm? If she had, I'm sure she would have immediately got online to return to leeching. No, she's probably spending the night at her house (without me! you jerk! I was bored!) and leaving whenever Sam decides to go back. Then why isn't she on the computer? Um...she's at home and didn't take her laptop. But if she didn't take her laptop, it'd be online currently sapping away while she was at home, so of course she took it. Why she isn't hooked up somewhere, I don't understand. Btw, why hasn't Patty been online? Hmm. Maybe Sam and her were returning to school and got in a horrific wreck! Yeah, that's it. *cringes* Okay, you're being overdramatic right now. She didn't get into a wreck. Sam does not equal Nick. I'm sure she's at home sleeping or something or can't get online. Yeah, calm down. No need to worry that she's in pieces somewhere on the side of the road..."
Actual conversation with myself.
*goes to angst elsewhere*
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(what if she really was dead? what would you do then? you jerk, you should have obsessed over her or something because what if she's really dead? you'll never talk to her again. just shut up, shut up mind. It's late and I'm sure Shiva when she reads this is going to be all "wtf?" I do think you're going insane)
P.S. Your own fave deviation gives me the creeps everytime I see it though it does have a certain amount of depth to it.
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
Just a thought.
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
My mom's taking care of the degus, I don't trust your cats
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~shiver
Aw, I want to see God (yes, that's her name now because because....I said so. Suddenly had a flashback to that show 'Dinosaurs' with the baby going, "Not the momma, not the momma.") more often.
*yawns* Eh, its such a pretty day and I've been left here at my house again. Man, I want to go out and enjoy the day.
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"Everyone has their price. Mine is $6.00. You can have me for $6.00." ~Michael Ian Black
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